what to do?
Life just moves on, right?

oh wells.
you really didn't remember at all.

hmt paper is in one more day.
didn't do well for my individual project.
I need a miracle to help me through it.
No more breakdowns.
I'm sick of it already.
Am going to study somemore.
to quote my avid reader-unifren:
"Even though we may have lost the battle, we are going to win the WAR."
hopes tomorrow will be a better day.

happy 40th months

happy 40th monthsery. but you don't remember.

I MISS MY BF NA.

I miss my dearest boyfriend.
but I doubt that he knows.
maybe he knows; but not the extent of it.
I miss him when I am studying for my papers;
thinking if he's also rushing out his urgently-pending assignments.
I miss him when I am having my meals.
thinking if he remembered to eat in the midst of his busy schedule.
I miss him, simply all the time.
BOYFRIEND, I need a hug badly :'(

random tots.

just some random thoughts...

1. Exams are SO near.
yucks. hope it will be over soon.

2. Life sucks at the moment.
but I do try to find some happiness from this dark moment of my life.
thank you to my most beloved boyfriend and my dearest friends for your support :)

3. and ya, I'm turning twenty-one in a month's time.
thanks to those who have asked about how I wana celebrate.
and no, I really don't feel like celebrating it.
I just wana get out of this dark moment.

4. feeling mentally and emotionally tired.
must cheer up soon.
jiayou limjiaxin.

I need a miracle.

I think I need a miracle badly.
a BIG one is needed badly.

I have to make a big decision.
One choice made, would require a great deal of sacrifice.
Or I could choose the easier way out.
and be the self-centered and selfish me.
I wish there was an option C.
perhaps, that option C is a miracle bahs.
Guess, I'll go pray about it.

Lord, if things can't be easier, make me stronger.

:))

AHHHHHHH. finally home sweet home after a long long day! :((

Two things that didn't make my day :

1. Been approached by the G.H.O.S.T.
she was like practically haunting me!
made me so paranoid!!
she approached me and tried to pinch me with an evil look on her face can!
I'm NOT exaggerating!
ask ronald. he witnessed it ALL. >.<
horrible shit.

2. Bad Strain of my shoulder.
I'm practically feeling like a handicapped lo.
any movement give rise to pain.
even breathing in deep.
Goodness.

Things that made my day :DD

1. it's my LAST day of SCHOOL! :DD *blinkblink*
2. Milo treat from Ronald who claims that it's for not seeing each other regularly enough >.<
3. I got to sit and chat with my favourite people in class!! :))
4. My sweet friends who helped me print my notes so that I can start on my revision :D

Wells. Though things aren't going great for me at the moment,
but I really pray and hope that they will turn out for the better.
'Cause I really feel tired :(

IT'S overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :DD

it's finally OVER!!
Gosh. it was hell.
But I thank God for putting people like my most beloved BOYFRIEND, eileen and emily in my life!
They really helped me through this hell of a time.
Boyfriend had to stay up late for two consecutive days to keep me company despite having to go school really early on the next.
AND! eileen and emily stayed up with me to help and teach me stuffs even though they could well be spending time sleeping.
SO sweet right?
I was totally touched :'(

a big thank you to boyfriend who sacrificed his sleep and for his patience with me.
a big thank you to eileen who stayed up late and went without lunch all because of me.
a big thank you to emily who stayed up late too and stayed back in school to guide me in my work
and a big thank you to eileen again for her "SHOPAHOLIC for the SHOPAHOLIC" email. which really made me smile :))
and of course, the biggest thankyou goes to God,
who put these nice people in my life to help me through such a tough time.
I wouldn't be able to do everything if not for Him.
:))

>.<

sometimes, I find that life is kind of unfair.
but, whose is fair?
and things tend to happen at the most important time of your life when you're supposed to be happy.
good timing sense uh?

I'm just monologue-ing here.
'Cause I'm dreading things and I'm definitely dreading going for my mktg meeting.
RAWRR!! :'((

:(

am sick.
still sick.
Need sleep.
Lots of it.
Need love.
Need tonnes of it.
:'(

HMT finally done!

HMT FINALLY DONE!
gosh. I feel like I'm dying now.
woohoo!
LET ME PASS PLEASE!! >.<

braindead

I'm SO sleepy.
didn't have a goodnite sleep.
and I haven't finish my HMT.
and so, I'm at home still, instead of rushing for MAB class.
I want to finish and sleep!!
but still, I have tuition this afternoon.
HOW AM I EVER GG TO SURVIVE IT ALL?
rawrrrrrrrrr!
God, I pray that everything will be just fine.
Amen.

Lord, I pray for more strength to get me through this. Amen.

another hectic day

today's actually quite a slack-ish day.
for one thing, I have no lessons today.
for the other, I didn't have any plans to fulfill.

and so, I spent my whole morning and afternoon doing more research for my HMT essay.
rawr! and I ended up with so many readings to complete.
sian.
but actually I found it quite interesting to read.
Spent abt two hours at Macs doing my readings.
:))

Some reminders to myself after some lessons learnt recently.

1. Must learn to believe in and not doubt my abilities.
2. Must learn to stop being paranoid about matters.
3. Must learn to trust people; but not blindly.
4. Must stop procrastinating about work that must be completed no matter what.
5. Must make time for ME-time! :))

:)) ahh.. that's about it :))

Random thoughts

Some random thoughts.
Rainy days evoke emotions :)

1. Am happy that I've lots of me-time today.
really caught up on my sleep and rest.
but still, I'm feeling sleepy.
God knows how much sleep I have been missing out on man :/
gee..

2. HMT deadline coming lers.
and am still kind of struggling with first draft.
man. limjiaxin stop procrastinating and get your work done! >.<

3. I miss going to singsong.
BEEN SO LONG since I last stepped into a KTV and sing my heart out.
sianned.
damn sian.
I NEED AN OUTLET BADLY!! :(

4. Am feeling overwhelmed by my workload that I don't wana care about anything else anymore.
am gg to dedicate this week and next week and the next next week to school work and my tuitions fully.
jiayou lim jia xin! :)

Am gg to do my MAB homework and revision before SLEEPING.
hehs. all the best to myself.
OH! just now was reading a chinese novel which I've been wanting to read since a long time ago.
there was this damn emotional part where it says . . .
思念是用脑子想，相处是用眼睛看，可以思念的爱情总是比较美的。
因为脑子容易美化，眼睛却只能笨拙的反应现实。
so emo right!! :/
but sometimes, it can be true :S

I'm so glad that we talked.
I love you . . .

:))

just wana say HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO QUEKPEILING aka my GORGEOUS HELLMATE :))

thank you for inviting us to your 21st birthday party.
it has been a memorable day for all of us :)
:))
Stay pwetty and crazy always ^^

overwhelmed.

today was supposed to be a fantastic day.
it's me and Jer's 38th monthsery!
*happy 3 years and 2 months, JER! :)*
was supposed to attend Clement's birthday party together.
Like finally, get to attend an event as a couple; rather than alone by myself.
but ended up, at the last minute had to cancel :(
*sorry eugene!*

am still overwhelmed by everything.
by myself, by everything right now.
Don't understand why things happen in such ways.
Don't understand why people turn out different from what they seem.
Don't understand why love couldn't just stay simple.
Don't understand why some people thinks so lightly of promises made.

situations around me happened in such a way that made me ponder quite alot.
promises aren't made to be broken.
else, you hurt the people who love you.
enough said.

aside from feeling sad,
good things did happen today.
had a great japanese treat @ ICHIBAN from my boyfriend :))
and we got to watch "HE's just not that into You"
it's a totally fabulous show :))
thank you boyfriend :)

:S

Am in school right now.
waiting for my turn at the printer.
such a long queue.
There should be a better system.
Hmm.. Maybe can implement Scientific Management in some ways.
HEE. Must be studying too much.
:)
but I'm gonna have to wait for SO LONG for my turn.
judging from the bulk that the people are printing.
SO SAD!!

And I'm so bored.
nothing to do.
nowhere to go.
BORED.
and I miss my boyfriend badly.
Our schedules just like clashing together.
NO TIME TO MEET UP!
oh man.
I'm feeling sad right now.
I wish I can have more time for myself :'(
sighhh...

:)

Thank God that the hectic period just went and passed temporarily :)

Below are things that happened this week and that I feel like sharing/whining about :))

1. today, I was quite pissed off w my mktg grp member.
I don't like "worriers"; they made me urmmm.. duno what word to use to describe.
anyways, I tried my best to control myself;
so that I won't talk in an intimidating way which I usually do when I want to get my way.
It took me lots of patience to be nice and listen patiently then explain patiently as well.
Gosh. FIVE MORE WEEKS TO GO! :(

2. Was quite relieved that HMT grp proj is done and over with.
Went CELEBRATE w eileen.
:))
but now have to worry about HMT individual.
will start on it SOON.
SOON, I promise. HEHS.

3. I THANK GOD that I don't have money on me today.
else I would have splurge it all.
SAW SO MANY NICE BAGS!
there's this soft leather bag from charles n keith; it's damn nice and EX.
and MY FAV HEELS are on SALEEEEEEEEEEE.
mans. it's a good thing that I don't own credit cards.
I'll be totally hopeless.
hehs. AM doing my best to control :))

4. PAYDAY is coming SOON.
wahahaha. okayy. Will promise to save up most of it.
but I'll be spending some!
SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LEARN DRIVING!
whee....
:DD

5. I miss my boyfriend SO MUCH.
but I'll be seeing him TML!
whee.
we have decided to go running every friday morning at 7am.
WHEE .
SO EXCITED.
man. I shld go to sleep soon.
I so need my energy.

okayy. Logging off soon.
have a great weekend everyone :))